I am a pretty easy person to get along with. Especially at the age I am now. I am more carefree I guess, and a little less uptight. If that is even the right word. However, I don't always say the things I want to say, good or "bad". I always think 10 steps ahead and know if I stick up for myself the way that I do, I know it would cause issues in some relationships. I keep that in mind every single time I have interactions with those people, as well as with the people associated with the individuals. I know it often comes off as weak, or easy to bully and push around maybe. But those days are slowly coming to an end. I am tired of living the shadows of my own heart and mind. I want to break free of the judgement and the criticism. I want to feel good, and I want to speak my mind like they do. I know that once I do speak my mind, and am totally honest it will cause problems. I guess I am ready to deal with those issues once in for all.
I just to be me. I just want to find my place in the world. I just want to find things that work for me and make me happy. I know that from the outside looking in, I may seem a little flakey. I may seem like someone who cannot make up their mind about things. And it's true, I do have a hard time finding diets, foods, and other things that work for me. But that is why I try all different things.
It's easy for someone to sit back, and listen or see 5% of my life and judge me for that. And that's fine, I guess. I am human-I can admit it does bother me a little. But just a little, maybe 5% lol. But seriously, we just this one life. I want to be happy in it. I want YOU to be happy in it with me.
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