Miss O & Kindergarten

Well, it's that time of year.  Time to shop for Miss O's Kindergarten wardrobe.  We will have Olivia on her first week - so I get to style her entire first week of school.  So excited.

I've started my shopping.  Did a little online, hope that I didn't get items that were to big....I guess we'll see.  I am taking her shopping this weekend too to try on jeans and tops.  Hope we find some good deals.

xoxo, Lela

Gavin - Personal Post

My oldest son has been home for a few weeks prior to moving to his new duty station in North Carolina.  We have not seen him in several years, because he was living in Alaska and that isn't an easy (or cheap) place to visit.  He's an adult now, mature (most of the time) living a life of his own, working hard and making great friends along the way.  I am very proud of him and cannot wait to visit him in NC.  I just know I am going to love it there.

His siblings sure have missed him and will miss him still when he leaves.  Especially our youngest, who has a huge fondness of her oldest biggest brother.

Here are a few snaps I got of them (which is no easy task).

G, W, X & Miss O

Our mini vacation with Gavin is coming to an end, he'll be leaving for North Carolina Saturday morning - so this is our last week with him.  Sucks that I have to work, but things are so crazy at the office right now and I already have vacation scheduled for the first two weeks of July!  So we'll have to plan to go see him in his new town......I am sure I'll love North Carolina.  :)

The other day, Gavin decided last minute to go visit a friend who was traveling through town (a guy he met in Alaska).  He hadn't been gone more then two minutes when Olivia piped up and said "I miss Gavin".  I laughed a bit and reminded her he had just left - and how he'd be back soon and she reminded me again how much she missed him still.  I asked her what she was going to do when he left on Saturday for North Carolina and she simply said (and she meant it) "FREAK OUT!"....I tried hard not to laugh-but how sweet is that child?  We will all miss him.

On Monday I took the kids to lunch and run a few errands.  They graced me with a few smiles-and here is our outcome :)

xoxo, Lela

Olivia's Room

Olivia is going to be turning 5 years old soon, and not only that but starting Kindergarten soon.  So to celebrate that, I decided to update her bedroom and do away with the more baby decor.  Thanks to some great ladies we narrowed it down to this.....I think I'll pain the cactus yellow to pull in more of the yellow from the Llama sheets & the yellow from the quilt-or I'll run to HOBBY LOBBY to see if I can find something I like better....we shall see.  I don't want to over do it.

I hope she'll have a great year....and a great birthday!

Cute Shoes Alert

Well, I found some cheap Birkenstocks...and how cute are they!?  $18 on POSHMARK....NWOT!   Yes....sold Originally at The Buckle, but they were out of my size.....ya'll really should posh.
Don't mind my toes-I have not had time to paint them!!!  But they are at least cut, and filed ;) lol

xoxo, Lela


I have been seeing a lot of people posting things on facebook (family and friends) about how they've been disappointed by people in their lives recently.  Some decided to cut their losses and terminate the relationship others still linger on, hoping for a different outcome next time, hoping that the other person will eventually see the "light" and stop hurting them.

What is the right thing to do?  Do you just give up on the people you love the most in the world, do you just cut that best friend out of your life that you've know since you were five years old?  Do you separate from your husband of 10 years, who you have children with?

Everyone has an opinion on this.  Everyone's opinion is based on so many different factors, such as how they were brought up (what their morals are), their own life experiences (and what that taught them), and their level of trust and ability to withstand pain.  Some people can take this type of disappointment from individuals they love their entire lives - some can't even take it the first time they are let down.  And the rest of us are sort of in the middle some place.

What is is the right thing to do?  No one can really tell you can they?  They can simply tell you what they'd do, and they base it on the people they know & love.  But they also base it on a situation that they themselves are not even experiencing.

I cannot tell you the hundreds of people that told me they could never put up with or deal with what I've been through with Billy and Olivia.  Each time those words are spoken to me, I cringe just a little bit more.  I rarely say anything back to the person, mostly I just smile because I know they are not being 100% honest with themselves or to me and I also know they mean it from a good place, mostly.

The truth is, we don't know what we'd do.  Our reaction is different every time, due to how we are feeling or what else we are going through in life.

All we can really truly do is just try to be a better version of ourselves every single day.  Try to be smarter, faster, leaner, better in every way.  We can try not to be the one going out making poor decisions that effect and hurt the ones we love the most in this world.

When I say life is short, I don't mean it to say "life is short you need to forgive..." or "life is to short to be with a son-of-a-bitch like that".  I just mean it is short, it is precious.  Find the people that make you happy, find someone that doesn't disappoint you - build on that relationship.  Re-evaluate your relationships with friends and family that lack the same morals as you do & maybe put them on the back burner for a while - while you nurture yourself and your healthy relationships.

Who knows what I am saying, I am just another asshole with an opinion.

xoxo, Lela

Gavin's Home (for a visit)

Well, we have Gavin home for a few weeks before she heads to NC to his new duty station at Fort Bragg.  We are enjoying his visit so far, though he keeps rather busy!  The boys sure were happy to see him (as you can see).

We had a small get together Saturday with some family & friends-it was rather amazing.  Everyone had a great time and we sure were happy to see the folks that came over.

xoxo, Lela

Mama take me to Mama

Sunday morning, while snuggling with Olivia she asked me "why don't you ever take me to visit Alicia?".  A question I didn't expect at this moment, but knew would eventually come in some form.  I didn't really know how to answer-so I referred it to her father-she asked him the same question "why doesn't mama ever take me, because I want her to".  He said "because she doesn't want to!" and as I shot him a dirty look he just said "well it's true".....and it is true.  I don't want to, but that is just what the truth is boiled down to - not the full truth.  And the version he tells makes me look like the bad guy.  But how do you tell a four year old the real truth?  It's not like she will understand the complex nature of our relationship.  But if he tells her this and Alicia tells her something different, suddenly I am the bad guy who is being difficult.  But I truly believe deep in my heart and soul that I deserve better then that.  I never want props for what I've done, I just wanted my story to not go unnoticed-just in case it could help someone.  I have sheltered people with my real feelings and thoughts and I have masked my own for years in the hopes that we could make this easy for Olivia.  I feel like I have given up enough-do I really have to give up my reasons for certain things I choose not to do?  It's not like it wouldn't be easier - for him.  But don't I already make things easy for him and for her?  How much more do they want from me?

I talked to Billy about it later and he was just pissed off.  I can't talk to him about the situation, because of his own guilt I suppose.  But what can we say to the little lady that she can understand?  How can we tell her why we do certain things the way we do them?  I really need advice on this, advice from someone not emotionally involved.....

xoxo, Lela

Travels | Cedar Key FL

Well, every once in a while I get a wild hair up my ass and decide I am sick of sitting around being introverted.  I make a plan, I get up and I go out and have a great time.  This particular time, I called up my sister and asked her to spend the day with me.  We drove out to Cedar Key.  We strolled around the town.  We went into a museum and a few shops.  We had an amazing lunch.  We had some drinks & listened to live music.  It was, a gorgeous-beautiful day!

If you've been thinking about getting out of your own house and exploring - give me a call, maybe we can do it together :)

xoxo, Lela


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