Monday, October 17, 2016

You can't ever get that time back.....

I woke up this morning with a little clarity and a little more insight on how my life has been going to date.  I am not going to waste so much time on caring about people who do not care for me.  I am not going to waste so much time on social media, and playing games on my phone when the kids are around wanting attention.  I spend to much time in thought and trying to be thoughtful to others, that I miss out and am not that way with the actual people living in my house.

I really do focus on the wrong people and the wrong tasks.  I care to much about my house being clean, and the dishes being done right that I am missing out on moments in my life that I really shouldn't.  I go to bed and wake up and think I have all the time in the world to spend with my children, and my husband.  But yesterday, as I was trying to go to sleep it weighed heavy on my mind - that today - when I was at Weston's dental appointment - he's almost grown.  He is almost eye to eye with me.  And though he is only 14 and I still have 4 years left of him being a child - I ONLY HAVE FOUR YEARS LEFT!!!  Then he'll be gone, out int he world living his life - maybe even across country like Gavin & Teresa.

Four years.  That's not much time!  Not much time at all.

Changing habits though, that will be hard-but it will be worth it!