Tuesday, October 01, 2013

NO thanks..;)

I have finally realized, after several months that I have the power to say, "no, that's not going to work for me".  So many crazy things have happened, and I have been forcing myself to deal with each one as they pop up, not really thinking about what it would do to me emotionally.  But the fact is, they drained me emotionally & caused me much grief.  It finally came clear to me that I don't have to take this all on by myself, and at the same time.  I don't even have to deal with the full stress of one particular thing.  I can take it in small doses.  I am allowed to take it slower. I am allowed to voice my opinion.  I am allowed to step back and reflect. I  am allowed to do nothing.  I feel like a weight has been lifted.

Now if I could only not care what a few people thought or what they are doing.  I am working on that, that one is a bit more tricky to deal with.  Though I have also handed that over to my husband, who will now deal with it.  I have to trust that he'll manage these relationships with sensitivity to all, including me.  And hopefully we'll find some calm after this big storm after all.

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